Viva La Vita

I don’t understand him sometimes. Why can’t he take “NO” for an answer. I’m busy with work and I tell him “No, I don’t want to see it right now” more than once. Instead of taking “No” he lashes out and starts lecturing about me not knowing anything, that I think I know everything.

I didn’t even mean that. I just don’t have time right now, if you give it to me later I’ll look at it. Now he’s lashing out at everyone in the house.

Sighs. Can’t he see that our household doesn’t revolve around “him?” He keeps telling me that I should just go back to Halifax since I don’t do anything at home. Well sorry to break it to you but, I work full time right now, I need to find “another job to please you” and I am taking a summer course that comes with work. Secondly, I would love to go back, but I can’t. Unless you’re willing to pay for my living expenses I’ll be glad to.

What you wanted me to see was something small that could be done anytime. 

I just want to make him understand that sometimes, it’s not only him that’s busy. But it seems like he’ll never see anyone but himself. It really upsets me and disappoints me.

I know he had a bad childhood, I know he has a lot of things on his plate but he’s not the only one. I know he doesn’t trust anyone, even family, and I know he wants everything his way. But he has to know that he doesn’t control everyone’s life and that there is a thing call love and trust.

If only he saw God like I see Him now. Maybe then he can realize that with God, everything is just easier. Love is easier. Trust is simpler. Life is not as bad and dull than it seems. I know I can’t force someone to believe in something. I didn’t truly believe in God myself until the last few months. Thanks to Him, I see life differently now. I still have a long way to go, but life to me is much more clear now. 

I know where I need to go, who I need to be.

If only my father saw that. If only he understood the pain he was inflicting with his words and actions. If only he could see all that…maybe then I could actually take him in fully without any barriers.

ruthyann:

It’s not about your attendance in church. It’s not about the kind of ministry you have. It’s not even about all the things you are good at. It’s not about the souls you have won to Christ. They’re not what makes you worthy of His love. All the things you have done for Him, for others, or even yourself, can never qualify you in God’s presence. So why boast? Why feel so above everyone?

In 2 Corinthians, Paul made it clear that our ministry to our brothers and sisters is not to tear them down but to build them up. Why? It’s because we know that even if they have been wrong, even if they have strayed away way too many times, we are all still the same dearly beloved children of God. And it’s our privilege to remind all our brothers and sisters about that; not flaunting about I did this, and did that, and oh, it was a shame you weren’t there. No. We’re here to encourage, not to put the spotlight on ourselves. Our banner is Christ’s love— it’s our language. Nothing else. Nothing else about us, or them. Just Jesus.

The only thing that qualifies us in God’s presence is His full-blown love that was expressed on the Cross. And that never changes, beloved. So nothing we do, nothing we feel, and nothing we say will ever disqualify us from the love of God. Our standing will never change. Our attendance, our ministry, our wisdom, our capabilities, and our accomplishments have nothing to do with it. And we have to always remember that. We are nothing without God. We are only this because of Him. Because of His love.

Remember that even when you fail, you are still loved. You are still accepted in Jesus. You are still blessed. Your answers are answered. Your provision is coming. No mistake or miscalculation will change these. Nothing will make Jesus love you less. Remind yourself that.

And remind others too, beloved, because they need it.

godsradicaldaughter

lovelylifewithme:

Suits. Yes, Suits. Many of my friends have been raving about this TV show so I decided to download Season 1 yesterday. 

It is good.

Although personally I find White Collar a little more exhilarating and multilayered, Suits is not bad either. It’s a different perspective at bromance, like Neal and Peter, Mike and Harvey also represent a certain kind of friendship.

I need to stop watching TV, I really do.