To forget the past. That’s what I really want to do right now. A day has past, but I still can’t get it off my mind. 24 hours, and I still don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to handle it.
I care for you. I really do. You are my friend and you always will be. What happened yesterday was a moment, a moment that, to be honest - I want to take back. But it is also a moment I know happened for a reason.
We can’t change our pasts. We can’t just forget about them and “move on.” I guess the best thing for me right now is to face it and deal with it. But how can I when I’m not even sure of the place our friendships is at now.
I want to keep this friendship, but I don’t know if it can return to the same place it was two days ago. What happened - happened. It has changed both of us.
What we had might never return. But what we will have - that I still don’t have it quite figured out. I know I need to give you an answer, I can’t leave you hanging. I can’t just pretend this didn’t happen. I need to give you an answer.
But what’s the best answer? What’s the best choice?
I can’t breathe. I’m having trouble figuring out my emotions.
I need a sign, a light - anything.
Anything to assure me that we are going to be okay.
Anything
