Viva La Vita

On the Nian Breakup.

Tue, 21 May 2013 16:57:00 -0400

Okay, so those that follow me know that I am a softy when it comes to romances. And Ian Somerhalder and Nina Dobrev were one of those couples that I rooted for to work.

When I heard of their break-up, I couldn’t digest it. I couldn’t believe it. 3 years.

They obviously still love each other, care for each other and value each other. Here’s my take: age became a factor. I know, I know - the saying “age is just a number” certainly runs true. But age brings stages and I believe that the both of them are in separate stages within their lives.

Ian is 34, he is at that age where he wants to settle down, start a family.
Nina is 24, her career is still skyrocketing with countless opportunities that she wants to embrace.

Ultimately, there is that defining gap. I believe that if they are meant to be, they will find their way back to each other. Besides, they are still acting together, Delena is happening next season and they are still relevant to each other. If they are meant to be, they will find their hearts back to each other.

Right now, we need to give them space.

As for fandoms saying that Delena is going to be over because of Nian’s breakup.

Uh. NO.

Ian and Nina are both professional enough to overcome this. They are both professional enough to separate their personal lives with their real selves. And when people are comparing this to Chad and Sophia from One Tree Hill.

Uh, first off - Chad cheated on Sophia. Obviously she is not going to want to work with him after that. Secondly, she got married to him and THEN FOUND OUT. So obviously she was hurt…big time.

Ian and Nina are different. They are still close and very much best of friends.

Right now, leave it to time and space. If it’s right, fate will bring them back together.

sassyalpha: I love you, Damon.

Thu, 16 May 2013 22:16:37 -0400

sassyalpha:

I love you, Damon.

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Thu, 16 May 2013 22:14:22 -0400

perfectheist: Damon & Elena Scenes 4x23 <3 God is...

Thu, 16 May 2013 22:13:09 -0400

perfectheist:

Damon & Elena Scenes 4x23 <3

God is good.

FINALLY afte 5 fuckin seasons!

He’d die before he let anything happen to her.

Sun, 12 May 2013 08:03:24 -0400

He’d die before he let anything happen to her.

At Heaven's Door

Sat, 11 May 2013 14:15:20 -0400

“It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and readjust the way you thought of things.” - Lemony Snickett

I don’t know what to feel right now.

I did not these two men. But to see the outpour of mourning all over Facebook, and to have this incident happen so close to home leaves me with no words. To think that a person in my family were amongst the group of people that saw these two men last leaves me voiceless. To know that my family member could have been one of these two men leaves me flustered.

Today they lost a friend, families lost sons and the world lost two promising men.

I know I have no right to express my sadness right now, but somehow indirectly there is a knot within me. It’s always hard to hear about death, to acknowledge tragedy.

We will all die someday. I could die at this very moment. But when death truly comes to our front door, it is hard to comprehend the emotions that flood us. We struggle to accept reality. When reality truly sinks in, we struggle to accept loss. And when loss becomes existent, we battle it within ourselves to re-adjust and overcome it.

My heart goes out to the friends and family of those two men today. My heart goes out to my family member as he struggles through this dark time. But whatever it be, God will heal in His own way. The two men are with God now - they just arrived at heaven’s door a little earlier than expected.

All of you will be in my prayers. May God give you guys the strength to pull through, and may the two men watch over you through this difficult time.

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Fri, 10 May 2013 16:58:03 -0400

To Be Vulnerable…

Thu, 09 May 2013 23:23:00 -0400

is to be able to open up and accept defeat, accept someone into your heart. To be vulnerable is to embrace your past, your present and your future.

Today, I went to the Ladies Small Group at church. I don’t want to elaborate on religion, since religion is a sensitive topic and people choose what they believe. However, during our session, we talked about sin, about Adam and Eve and what sin truly was.

Sin is what we believe.

When we choose to believe certain things that we know is certainly wrong, when we choose to do things that are against what we are originally taught – that is sin. Sin is the source of our denials and lies. Sin is the reflection of what makes us stronger.

At the end of the session, we got into pairs and talked about the sin within our lives.

We were asked to be vulnerable.

Throughout my life I have had trouble being vulnerable. I have had trouble opening up and spilling it out to another. So, instead, I have done many things I’m not proud of, hurt those that cared for me and lost some valuable relationships.

However, since accepting Christ back into my life again – vulnerability has become something that comes natural to me.

But what was fascinating about today was, after giving my testimony, by friend’s testimony was a reflection of my past. There are details that are obviously different – but the pain, the emotions, the feelings – she could relate to me on the same level.

I used to think that no one would ever understand me. No one could be in the same situation as me. Obviously I was wrong.

It was so great to be able to open up and connect our pasts together. It was refreshing to talk about our troubles, our mistakes and how both of us are trying our hardest to start anew and try to fill the voids and strains within our lives. But I think what’s most valuable is both of us seeing the different Christ has made within our lives.

Ultimately, I just want others to know that – YOU ARE NOT ALONE. There is someone out there that is going through the same thing, that hold the same emotions as you do, and who understand you. Don’t think that it will never get better, it DOES GET BETTER.

Trust me. I am an example of perseverance and rising against. Countlessly I thought I would not make it through, numerous times I tried leaving this life – but in the end, I realized that our lives are gifts.

We cannot just end it without putting up a fight.

We got to fight, fight with all our might.
We got to be strong, and never give up.
We got to believe that, at the end of the darken road – there is light, there is hope.

Believe it, you will overcome.

Life puts obstacles so that we can overcome the ultimate test. Once we overcome, we will be able to overcome ourselves and find a reason to live.

Remember, tomorrow is never promised. Today is not a guarantee. We only have this moment. So grasp the moment and fight for the happiness you deserve.

You can’t live with them, but you can’t live without them.

Wed, 08 May 2013 21:34:41 -0400

Men.

NO. BOYS.

Why do they have to complicate things? I’m not saying that all men are like this. Men are indeed a great species – they are good to look at, attractive and basically is what we need to keep our race going.

BUT some men just gives me headaches. Okay, not men – that’s too much of a generalization. A BOY is giving me complications. Funny thing is, he’s not even my boyfriend. If I am already stressed over one guy, what would happen if I had an actual boyfriend.

He just had to drag me into this whole mess. A mess that I wasn’t even involved with in the beginning. But no, he had to drag me into it and make me feel bad, and potentially force me to lose the two most precious things in my life right now.

I’m sorry buddy, but I can’t do this anymore. I can only do so much with your stupidity. I mean, I know I can’t blame you – you can’t control who you have feelings for. But honestly, it is too stressful for me to continue with it.

I love him. He is a great friend and I cherish him with all my heart. But…some things are just frustrating. I mean, literally hair-tearing and mind confusing.

I have no time to deal with mind confusion. Right now, I just want to live my life happily and with those that I love – friends and family. Boy can be left alone for now. And him – well – I’m going to continue to love him, just not deal with his drama.

Sighs.

Men. A certain species that we can’t live with, yet we can’t live without them. Oh, the irony.

"Elena: Seriously? You think this— Damon: Shut up! I’m done playing nice. Turn your emotions back on..."

Sat, 04 May 2013 10:26:11 -0400

“

Elena: Seriously? You think this—

Damon: Shut up! I’m done playing nice. Turn your emotions back on right now, Elena, or so help me god, I will give you something to be sad about. I will kill him right here in front of you.

Stefan: Damon.

Damon: Don’t “Damon” me. She doesn’t love anyone? Fine. Prove it. And if I’m wrong, what difference does it make? One less busboy.

Matt: Elena.

Elena: You’re bluffing.

Damon: How about now? You feel anything now? You angry I just turned your buddy into roadkill? Or are you sad that the guy that everybody loves is just a bag of bones? Remember when he was a little kid, huh? Warm heart, big goofy smile, his whole life ahead of him. I guess it was a good idea that he was wearing this.

Elena: Oh, my god, Matt.

Damon: You feel that weight lifting off your chest? That’s joy, because your friend isn’t dead. That’s emotion, Elena. That’s humanity.

”

- i love this scene because it wasn’t her love for damon or stefan that tuned her humanity on it was her love for her friend and it was so heartbreaking when damon snapped matts neck (via chardonette-121)

"Pandora Box, a box that shouldn’t be opened. Plenty of misery flowed out of that box. But… what do..."

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 15:31:27 -0400

“Pandora Box, a box that shouldn’t be opened. Plenty of misery flowed out of that box. But… what do you think was left at the end? It was hope.”

- J (via chyunmi)

yasminnyc18: hearts | via Facebook on We Heart It....

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 10:22:50 -0400

yasminnyc18:

hearts | via Facebook on We Heart It. http://weheartit.com/entry/59906224/via/sheismhain

New Summer, New Adventures

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 19:16:52 -0400

Okay, okay. I know I haven’t posted in a long time. My apologies.

I have just been so caught up with school, exams and work that I haven’t had the time to write. Then when I thought I did, I had to pack my life in 3 suitcases and fly to another province to start my first co-op. So the last couple days I’ve been settling in Ottawa, seeing the sights and figuring out how to commute to different places.

For those that don’t know where Ottawa is, it’s in the province of Ontario. Ottawa is Canada’s capital city (so, that means Parliament Hill and Stephen Harper).

I have honestly missed writing. I miss sharing my emotions and thoughts with all my followers. I am just so thankful for all of you.

I am so thankful for all that has happened in the last year. It was honestly last summer that everything I once knew began to change. Last summer was the first time I realized that the person I was, was not the person I wanted to become.

This last year has been life-changing. Aside from accepting Christ back into my life, I have met some of the most amazing girls in the whole wide world. They are honestly my rock, my foundation, my sisters. I love them to pieces (and just to think, I have only known them for the last 6 months). We have become inseparable and they have become family to me. I am so thankful for them two.

I am also so thankful for my family. I have always had family problems (I mean, which family doesn’t?) For me, it was my relationship with my father. I always had trouble communicating and talking with them. There was not a time where I could talk with and not end up arguing or frustrated. However, this past year, I can say, I have had some memorable and meaningful conversation with him without any interruption.

Lastly, I am so thankful for all of you. You guys are my ears when the world does not want to listen. You guys are my inspiration when I lose hope. You guys are my followers and leaders. I love you all.

I promise to post more this summer of my adventures. Besides, a new summer means a new beginning, right?

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Fri, 19 Apr 2013 15:00:50 -0400

Jake obviously has a fiancée…were you nervous about doing...

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 15:18:17 -0400

Jake obviously has a fiancée…were you nervous about doing (kissing scenes) with him? (x)

Allie is one lucky gal. That is all

Their bromance is absolutely awesome.

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 15:17:54 -0400

Their bromance is absolutely awesome.

Adam & Blake | The Voice: Episode 3

Tue, 02 Apr 2013 22:51:02 -0400

Adam & Blake | The Voice: Episode 3

geekyfashions: “No choice is the wrong choice as long as you...

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 22:35:07 -0400

geekyfashions:

“No choice is the wrong choice as long as you make a choice. The only wrong choice is choosing not to make one” - Jake Abel

Us: Head vs. Heart

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 10:02:58 -0400

Us: Head vs. Heart:

michaelalvarado:

People tend to think with either their head, or their heart.

My heart says “I’m madly in love with her”, but my head says “I only met her yesterday”.

My heart says, “I want to marry this girl”, but my head says “My parents and friends have never even met her before.”

My heart says,…

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Thu, 21 Mar 2013 20:39:09 -0400